The Ritual Begins

Upon last update I might have sounded rather dismayed
that is usually the position she puts me in
so it is not to be unexpected

her basic presence coats my words in a slimy film of self destructive mindless doubt
it is rare that she isn’t preventing me from speaking in plain English about rationalities and whatnot
so I am very excited to be here with you today
to fill you in on what is one of the harder things I’ve ever done

it’s not a short story
so before I inevitably get distracted with the dark siren’s shriek once again
here is how I put one foot forward
and then the other
and then the other again
over and over
to walk forward

walk forward instead of
a steady retreat.